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LJ Old School All Stars in the Haus!

Gosh there are still a few intrepid LJ users around?!

I thought there was a general "write flight" over to twitter so LJ users won't have to labor over a long, elaborate train of thought. Well, hunterxtc is attempting a one-man come back, so maybe I'll join him, if nothing more than a victory lap for all the good times and good friends here.

He found this "answer one question per day livejournal meme" going around. So we're going day by day to answer each one of them.

Day 1- your current relationship; if single discuss how single life is:
Me and Bob are on our 7th year.
Day 2- where you’d like to be in 10 years: In some tiny home out in the middle of nowhere, with my stuff animals and drum machines, living the Amish high life. (drum machines will have to be attached to belts that are attached to Old Order-approved propane generators)
Day 3- your views on drugs and alcohol: I wish somebody would have told me John Cage was an expert mycologist. It would have saved me the trouble of reading Silence aloud and not understanding anything. Also, Shamens have no magical powers, they just reminded people to focus when they were tripping.
Day 4 - your views on religion: If it makes you a kinder person, I say go for it.

upcoming topics
day 5 - a time you thought about ending your own life.
day 6 - write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
day 7 - your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
day 8 - a moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
day 9 - how you hope your future will be like.
day 10 - discuss your first love and first kiss.
day 11 - put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
day 12 - bullet your whole day.
day 13 - somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
day 14 - your earliest memory.
day 15 - your favourite tumblrs.n
day 16 - your views on mainstream music.
day 17 - your highs and lows of this past year.
day 18 - your beliefs.
day 19 - disrespecting your parents.
day 20 - how important you think education is.
day 21 - one of your favourite shows.
day 22 - how have you changed in the past 2 years?
day 23 - give pictures of 5 girls who are famous who you find attractive.
day 24 - your favourite movie and what it’s about.
day 25 - someone who fascinates you and why.
day 26 - what kind of person attracts you.
day 27 - a problem that you have had.
day 28 - something that you miss.
day 29 - goals for the next 31 days.
day 30 - your highs and lows of this month
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Writer's Block: FWB

Sure, the pros are obvious—but what are the cons of having a friend with benefits?

You become spoiled and you will tend to resort to his or her help when you should be learning to pull yourself up by your own bootstraps. Don't believe me? When you go traveling outside of your own country and you have no one to depend on...it will become very apparent.
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10 songs at the top of my playlist for 2010

10 tracks that I listened to most in the year 2010. That doesn't mean the songs were popular or created in 2010. Merely, that they were my favorite, and often cued at the top of my playlist. Here they are, in NO particular order.

1. "What What In the Butt" by Samwell

Best song ever. I'm not a great fan of electro, but I'm a huge fan of anything that is openly GAY. This brash, unapologetic masterpiece from the out-of-the-closet airline attendant stands erect from a society that is constantly assasinating unique identities in order to assimilate and conform. Created in under twenty minutes, this lo-fi piece is begging to be mashed, remixed, stretched, and sampled. But in it's original state (only available from I-Tunes), it's a joyous piece that is celebrates the gay life undiluted!


2. Invocation of My Demon Brother by Mick Jagger

Improvised on a newly purchased Moog analog synthesizer by Rolling Stones frontman in the late 60's, this hypnotic piece accompanies experimental filmmaker Kenneth Anger's short celluloid LSD trip. The analog texture of the synth has that gorgeous complexity that cannot be replicated by modern electronics.

3. She Was Too Easy by Arthur (Arto Lindsay?) Lindsey

The opening track of George Rodgers's 1969 grindhouse b-movie The Abnormal Female, along with the free jazz soundtrack and unmistakable Arto Lindsay voice tells me this is the fledgling outing of the Brazilian jazz / pop auteur. The changes of "She Was Too Easy" (the opening track) has that bossa nova Saudade (Portuguese for a certain sadness for something that is lost) that I love so much.

4. Compassion by Nina Simone

From my favorite and Nina Simone's favorite Nina Simone album "and Piano", Compassion is a gorgeous gospel piece based on a poem by Paul Lawrence Dunbar. I listened to the whole record repeatedly at the time my dear friend Louisa tragically passed away. Try "I'll Look Around" to hear the fantastic classical touch Nina Simone had (she was barred attendence to The Curtis Institute in Philly, the most prestigious piano school in this country).

5. Ya Underwear (Go Go Crankin Mix)

Classic funky deep house track that San Francisco's DJ Dan used to spin. It's the sound that I miss so much ever since GBH Fridays changed venues, Centrofly closed down in midtown NYC,  Carl Kennedy headed back to UK, 9/11 happened, and "Chill Lounge" put the "slacker" into dance music.

6. A Song by Loudon Wainwright III

The closing track on Wainwright's Little Ships album, it features a lone banjo and a string ensemble. A short song about writing a short song, this meta-song opens into a stately vista that Wainwright marries so expertly between simplicity and patrician grace.


7. Warren Jeffs Explains by Kinkzoid

Illinois experimental rock band came out with this piece that hilariously puts Fundamental Mormon polygamist (FLDS) prophet Warren Jeff's racist, homophobic sermons to a sterilized Muddy Waters' blues riff. I found out about them during my research into the evolution of marriage. Give all their albums a listen at their website for free KinkZoid and make a donation or buy an album if you like what you hear!

8. Grapefruit Moon by Tom Waits

Back when Tom Waits used to sing melodically, this gem from his debut album has been remade, tributed, copied, and modified UNSUCCESSFULLY by dozens of songstresses and artiste. They all failed miserably for the same reasons you can't sing a song that is truly written by a real singer / songwriter: the song belongs to that creator and no one else. Any subsequent "versions" are just cheap Chinese knockoffs that no amount of justifications of "interpretions" can suffice.

9. Heitor Villa-Lobos's Manquinha from Guia Pratico by Elaine Elias

Fusion jazz pianist with Steps Ahead have since become bossa nova chanteuse. Along the way, she came out with a classical album for EMI. Among the bright points in her rendition of Bach, Ravel, and Villa Lobos is Manquinha, a beautiful and restrained piece that has the elegance of Brazilian high culture.

10. Minha (All Mine) by Elaine Elias

Eliane Elias plays and sings Brazilian songwriter / composer Francis Hime's composition, a piece that Bill Evans brought to mainstream American jazz fans in the 50s. Elias captures the gravity and melancholia that spans Bill Evan's 30 years after the tragic death of his bassist / sideman Scott LaFaro.

Extra Credit: Sountrack of Revenge

Not sure if it's on the soundtrack by Jack Nietzsche or not, but the music during the closing credits is the highlight of this Kevin Costner piece. It's a lone gut-strung guitar literally sighing amidst drops of notes like tears. I've loved this piece for years, and recently tried to find out the actual song. I thought, the "touch" of the guitarist is reminiscent of LA session great Tommy Tedesco, especially in his song "Impressions from Hollywood Boulevard." I looked it up and guess what?

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3 Livejournal People I Want To Meet

Ok, this is not a popularity contest. So please, the last 2 people who are still reading my LJ. Don't get insulted if your name isn't on this list. I hate popularity AND beauty contests.

Now, 3 LJ Peeps I want to meet

Said it before. Thought you may resemble a mythbusting walrus going by your avatar, turns out you don't, happily! Of course, that still doesn't solve the issue of you not suffering fools gladly or having little patience. So maybe I'll just drive by and say "hi."

With the engine running.

You may be the mayor of simpleton, but I still love you! I'll never forget your offer to put me up when things get too bad around here. Though wholly improbable and physically impossible, I'll always appreciate the thought, and I know it was sincere.

Rockit girlfriend! When we get together it's going to be "2 Girls 1,345,325,622 glasses" We're long overdue to throw "a few" back and talk about things that is NSFLJ!

And esprix, greg, and ambitious_wench, I didn't list you guys cause I know we'll meet eventually, without even trying!

Right, just so this post doesn't go to waste. I have been looking at this incredible page below (click on the image to take you to the website ChinaSmack). If you have a weak stomach, DON'T GO THERE. It shows parts of India and the Ganges, where people dump dead animals, dead bodies, burnt corpses into the river and simultaneously swim and wash in, drink from, and brush their teeth with. It's amazing and beautiful. If you are afraid of death you shouldn't look or read the page.

Paradoxically, if you do look at the images, you realize how natural death is, and that dying is a very natural part of living. There is nothing to fear. We come from the earth, we sustain ourselves with the earth, and soon enough, we return to the earth. Pete Townshend sang: "The sea refuses no river
And this river is homeward flowing."

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    Take Me To The River?
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Dream Entry: Art Class

In the dream, the project was to create a piece for the end of the semester. I took a elongated mural-sized canvas out to the courtyard and painted it glossy black. When the day came to present it, my piece appeared to be a black doorway on a wall in the classroom. The professor walked up to it, and entered into the doorway. After a few minutes, he reappeared and said, "now this is what I'm talking about." The students in the class file into and through the doorway.

There was a staircase down into a basement painted all black. At the bottom, there was a bookshelf containing all the books of the classical masters....and a hammer. The professor picked up the hammer and looked at the shelf containing the canon of western art masters. I asked, "can you do it." After several moments where he almost swung at the shelf and destroyed it, he shook his head. No. I can't.

We all filed back upstairs. Wake up.

You might be a nerd if you laugh at this...

My friends all look infinitely hipper than me.  By comparison, people assume I'm a nerd. But nerds grew up to be Williamsburg hipster dufuses staring at their smartphones all day.  I still use a rotary phone.  Things that nerds consider the holy grail have utterly no meaning to me whatsoever. And that's when I know what they are talking about. Most of the time I'm clueless. Witness actual comments I have made in the past:

1. "I thought Revenge of the Jedi was the last Star Wars movie made."

2. "I've never seen a single episode of Star Trek."

3. "Isn't Lord of the Rings a bunch of schoolkids flying around on broomsticks?"

4. "Hey it's the dude from Fantasy Island trying to be a metalhead!"

5. "So what do you guys do at comicon, talk about Mao?"

6. I went through the nineties calling Deep Space Nine Deep Six Nine.  I thought it was an adult flick.

7. "E.T. is that Pepsi commercial alien right?"

8."No Dungeons and Dragons for me thanks.  I hate S&M."

9. "You mean Avatar isn't a remake of the smurfs? Isn't everyone blue?

10. "You own all three Matrix's? You must have a big garage!"

11. "JK Rawlings wrote Harry Potter, wow that dude first invented the basketball, and now he's a bestselling author? Amazing!"

12. "Name at least four X men? Let's see: John Holmes, Max Hardcore, Rocco Siffredi, Nacho Vidal."
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TSA puts the Cop in Copping a Feel

I got two people coming in at Newark Airport from outside the country in the next few days.

I don't quite know how to forewarn them that their T&A is going to get TSA'd at customs. Honestly, aside from the long-term effects of unprotected X-rays on one's body organs (there will be class-action lawsuits, trust me on this), is it really that bad that your naked body is revealed? I'm not the person to ask since I once made a living going on stage naked for the most part. I have played at NYC's CBGB's, CBGB Gallery, Brownie's, and the Mercury Lounge without a stitch, save a strategically-placed Spam can, or a bundle of grapes.

It was a very small bundle.


So being naked has no meaning or social trauma to me.

Of course, being pat down is another thing altogether. I know I know. We all like to envision Don Draper with his big hairy arms groping our fragile bodies at the security checkpoint. But the reality is, it's probably going to turn out to be Precious. And our buttocks is going to waft greasy blackened fried chicken* for the rest of the day.

(*geographically accurate, as Newark Airport is across the highway from the State's best blackened Chicken restaurant in Elizabeth, where many people go takeout during lunch on a workday)

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When I hear that old time Christmas Music

I was having a good day until I heard my first Christmas music for the year. It's amazing how everything it conjures within me is the total opposite of what I'm suppose to feel.

Here are images that immediately sprang to mind: Rotting corpses of trampled Walmart shoppers from previous Christmases, women yelling at the customer service desks, women muscling pass each other at sales events, Bing Crosby beating his children, children crying while sitting on Santa stinking of booze at the malls, turkeys breathing a sigh of relief at having escaped Thanksgiving only to be choked dead for Christmas dinner, single men shaking the last drops of whiskey from their empty pint bottles, Christmas tree lights shorting out and catching on fire while the family sleeps with Santa's fat ass stuck in the chimney, mold growing on decaying fruit cake with an inferiority complex in transit to yet another unlucky recipient, Jews stabbing Jesus with a dradle saying, "it's your fault we want presents now!"

I guess this may be one of the reasons all my friends say "trust us, you are the outlying factor to who Corporate America targets as their demographic. And here's the most ironic part: I'm a Presbyterian with many different editions of the Bible that I actually read throughout the year.

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Political Correctness Killed The Spirit of Discussion

I honestly think the phrase "politically-correct" has done more to destroy frank discussions and the spirit of intellectual inquiry than anything else. The moment someone says what's really on their mind, knee-jerk accusations and insincere apologies abound, forcing people who may genuinely have an interesting angle on a topic to trip over themselves in backtracking that foot out of their mouths.

Are we that naive that we will accept their apologies as being heartfelt? No. I'd rather hear what's really on their minds. I can always say "I disagree, but I've learned something from this conversation."

I have to add that someone walking up to you in public and making their opinion known to you is not the same thing as you accidentally coming across a blog entry, an online article, or an online comment made. No one has any control of where you surf on the internet. If you accidentally stumbled upon a Samoan supremacist group, don't blame the members for vowing to the certainty of the Taro kicking the Russet potato's backside (wow, now that was a PC sentence right there if I've ever seen one! See how much fun we're not having?)

Whenever I come across someone who wants people like me dead (too numerous to list here), I don't wag my finger and scream invectives with righteous indignation. The only word that vibrates with excitement and anticipation within me is "why?" It's almost a forensic curiosity in getting to the bottom of what made that conclusion tick.

My point is, just because someone has their prejudices ingrained, it doesn't mean we should shush them with a whack on the knuckles and walk away. If someone feels creeped out by my black eyes, it doesn't mean their puff pastry recipe stinks. What happens if they know something I don't? I have bad teeth: does that mean you shouldn't listen to my Photoshop advice? Not if you want to land that so-so date with that E-harmony woman who has five kids from six previous marriages who demands you have at least two houses.

Should we be so arrogant as to think that we're always right in everything, and everyone else is always wrong when they don't agree with us? No. Only people who use Babylock to serge think like that. (See how boring that last PC statement was?)

I'm always an interested listener, especially when I come across someone who doesn't agree with me. When co-workers use to come to my office to talk (back when I had a full time job...when Jimmy Polk was our president), if I learned they were from a party that opposed my views, I would refrain from attacking and genuinely listen. It's always enlightening to hear people who don't parrot my views. People who agree with me bore me. Maybe I can learn something new. At worst, I confirm that he or she is a jerk.

At best, I learn I was wrong, and quickly move to reassess my own prejudices or ignorance.